I started laughing out loud in the silent room of the library when I heard this song...and had to post it...

Marques Houston - Sex Wit You Lyrics

Let me break it down and tell you what your sex is like
Yeah
I don't know what it is
What it feels like
Sex with you
It's like
Heh, it's like
Damn
I don't really know what it's like
But uh, let me try to explain.

Sex with you is like when I wake up in the morning
Smell that good old breakfast mama use to make
Sex with you is like the feeling that you get
When all your friends surprise you on your birthday
Sex with you is like, like I made the last shot and everybody screaming my name
Sex with you is like my pocket full of dough and I don't worry 'bout a damn thing

When I think about the sex
Nothing better comes to mind
I wanna sex you all the damn time
Thinking 'bout the sex
It's got me wantin' you to come true
And do sex like we always do
Sex with you is really the best with you
It makes life worth going through
And nobody got a body like you
'Cause my sex with you is one easy, gotto go lookin' in the street it's you
Ain't nothing better then the way we do
Girl I love having sex with you

Sex with you is like winning in a war after working so damn hard
Sex with you is like when the man at the dealer ship hands over the keys to my new car
Sex with you is like when I check's up in the mail after been broke for so long
Sex with you is like its like getting off the bench and shorty is there to take you home

It's all about the freaky things we do
And I know, you like it just as much as I do
Baby I aint never try to hit and run
I'm just trying to make you the only one
I'll sex you up on the regular
'Cause aint nothing better then sex with you:uh

Let me break it down and tell you what your sex is like
Sex with you is like going to the strip club
And aint gotta pay for none of that strip love
Sex with you is like, like a closet full of air force
Sex with you is like, like be the first nigga in the hood with back drop's 45's

Sex with you is really the best with you
It makes life worth going through
And nobody got a body like you
'Cause my sex with you is one easy, gotto go lookin' in the street it's you
Ain't nothing better then the way we do
(I can have sex with you all night long
Till six in the morning, holla)
Girl I love having sex with you.

Last week I got into University of Virginia, New York University, and UCSD (got denied from Cal and UCLA...go figure)...

Even though I still don't know what I'm doing with my life, I'm excited about the changes that are going to occur. I'll keep you updated.

- Scott

I hate waiting to know what I'm doing with my life.

I hate the endless amount of work I have to do.

I hate how many weeks are left of school.

I can't wait until this summer.

Goodnight.


Folding up the skyline
agreeing on a steep decline
cant control this airplane.

Life is good.
I just got back from Spring Break and I have five weeks of school left.
Time flies when you're stressed and have five million things to do all the time.
I drank last night for the first time in two weeks.
Got really wasted.
I like nights like that, but I hate the mornings afterwards.
San Diego has been good to me this year, but I'm thinking about transferring schools.
I filled out applications to the following schools and I have been seriously debating attending one of them:

UC Berkeley
UCLA
UCSD
Brown
Georgetown
USC
NYU
Boston College

My grades have been decent during my stay at USD, so I'm hoping at least one of these schools will decide to accept me.
For all of my USD companions, its going to be tough deciding whether to leave or stay at this school.
I feel like I need a change of pace, but I really do enjoy the classes and the students I have met here.

If you haven't noticed already, I changed my username on livejournal from bigpapa88888 to eludinghistory. I felt bigpapa88888 was getting a little juvenile and that eludinghistory set a nice tone for my livejournal. Oftentimes it feels as if people run away from the past or try to change history. Livejournal is a perfect way to recreate history so that it is something different. This is the concept behind the name eluding history.

Cheating death romances me...

neebz

half and half

American flagz

hillz of sand

open mouth on hills

straight lines

A couple pix of South America...

( check it out )

thanks for stopping by...

Scott the Dot.

Good evening world,
This summer is turning into the biggest roller coaster ride ever. Ups and downs hit me with no warning and send me spinning in all directions. I’ve been working so hard in school I find I’m almost uncomfortable if I’m not working. It takes hours to even think about relaxing. The only time I feel truly comfortable is when I’m either surfing or sitting in a math class taking notes. Yes, two completely contrary experiences and yet they are the two times I feel most comfortable.
When I’m not in school or surfing, I’m at work. Pf Changs has actually taught me a lot about personalities and subjected me to people I would never associate with in Orinda or at school. Drug addicts, alcoholics, ass holes, teenage mothers, high school drop outs, you name it. These are the people I hang with when I walk into Pf Changs at night, and I’m actually enjoying it. However, I think after this summer, I’m going to move on to better and bigger things. There’s way more to life than wasting away in a restaurant, walking people to their tables, and taking reservations. I could work in a hospital, do research someplace; anything that makes a difference in the world.
As far as relationships go, I’m too busy to even meet girls at this point in my life. I guess there has been a couple little flings this summer, but nothing for the record books. I could care less. I’ve got a habit of running into people every time I turn around.
I guess this is what life is like as you get older. All of a sudden you have all of these responsibilities that you have to attend to, and your carefree childhood is slowly taken away. That’s fine with me. I’ve been working so hard recently and it feels like I’m not doing enough.
This past year has given me a new vigor to go out and become something. I’m becoming more and more competitive in my classes and I’ve found that I have an intense desire to be successful. Successful in school, successful in work, successful in life. I want to grow up and own an estate on a hill and sip wine at night and listen to jazz for hours. I want a beautiful wife and beautiful kids and a sailboat. Is this self centered? Maybe. Is this the remedy for happiness in old age? Maybe not. But I do know that if I can make positive changes in the world on the way to success, there’s a fairly good chance happiness will come along with it.

And by the way...these guys are the coolest guys you could possibly meet...

Thanks for reading,
Scott the Dot

So feel the air
take the map and point to anywhere.
I don't care. Fingers through your hair,
the sky I've seen, blue and green.
Oh, the summertime...

talk about blinded...

ha.

depressed.

Today I woke up at 7. I’ve been waking up early a lot and I’m beginning to take pleasure in it. The day seems everlasting and it’s nice to indulge yourself in new activities with all the extra time. Time is a funny thing in itself really. When life is filled with school work and stressful activities, time flies. But when you have little to do, it seems like the day is endless.

This break has been exciting. It started off with an incredible week in Hawaii. Hawaii is such a cliché family vacation spot, but I think people should appreciate it more. I mean, where else can you find hundreds of American girls lying on the beach looking for a cute guy to meet (not that I met any girls there or anything). After Hawaii I came back to the Bay Area and celebrated Christmas and New Years, indisputably the two finest holidays of the year. After these holidays I spent the rest of the time working, doing art, and hanging with friends.

My art project really excited me this break. It took me an eternity to come up with an idea for what to construct. Quite frankly I don’t know if I created something conceptually interesting, but aesthetically it looks pretty neat. I built the capital building and then replaced the dome of the capital with a brain. On top of the building is the bald eagle eating out of the brain. I was trying to make a statement on the government’s ignorance of education and how they’re slowly eating away at children’s resources to learn. Hopefully some people will understand that when they see my project.

So now I’m sitting in the airport about to head off to San Diego. I’ve never really enjoyed airports. You’re always either impatiently waiting for your plane to come, or anxious to get out and meet up with your friends. But if you slow down and look around you, airports are pretty amazing. There are people going and people coming. There are people working and others just traveling for pleasure. If you open yourself up a little, it’s fun to sit and watch these travelers and imagine their whole life story.

I wish I had an interesting life story. I need something more in my life. I need more depth. Maybe even something concrete. Something that I can hold on to and is mine. As I enter into this new semester it feels like I’m not going to find this vague and indescribable entity that I’m looking for. It feels like I’m going back to the same old place. It’s like slipping my foot back into that familiar old shoe. Comfortable and easy, but not exhilarating and new. I’m hoping I’ll figure out how to stir up some excitement this semester.

Scott the Dot

If you be my star i'll be your sky
you can hide underneath me and come out at night
when i turn jet black and you show off your light

but you can sky rocket away from me
and never come back if you find another galaxy
far from here, with more room to fly
just leave me your stardust to remember you by

if you be my boat i'll be your sea
a depth of pure blue just to probe curiosity
ebbing and flowing and pushed by a breeze
i live to make you free

but you can set sail to the west if you want to
and past the horizon til i can't even see you
far from here where the beaches are wide
just leave me your wake to remember you by...

[thank you matt brown for putting this song on your myspace...i love it...and its lyrics]



Scott the Dot

I miss you blacks...


2 weeks...

Scott the Dot

A whisper
A whisper
I hear the sound of a ticking of clocks
Remember your face, and remember see where you are gone
I hear the sound of the ticking of clocks
Come back and look for me, look for me when I am lost

Just a whisper, whisper, whisper, whisper

Night turns to day and I still have these questions
You just won't break, should I go forwards or backwards
Night turns to day and I've still got no answers

Just a whisper, whisper, whisper, whisper

Now I hear the sound of a ticking of clocks
Remember your face, and remember see where you are gone
I hear the sound of the ticking of clocks
Come back and look for me, look for me when I am lost

Just a whisper, whisper, whisper, whisper



Scott the Dot

Its January 1, 2006 and I still haven't found any meaning in my life. Eighteen is an awkward age. An eighteen year old is not entirely capable of living on his own, yet he feels as if he's independent of his parents. He really has no understanding of what his future beholds, and has thousands of paths he can go down. When I woke up this morning, the uncertainty of my future hit me like a rock.
San Diego is a beautiful place to go to school and I was very happy last semester. So far this break has been incredible. The suspects were in full force on New Years Eve, and I get to see Bubba for a month while we're both here in Orinda. But there are pieces missing in my life, and there are things that trouble me.
Sidenote: Ashlee from Oregon (a friend from school) is probably gonna kill me when she reads this post, because I have a habit of saying things in this livejournal and then acting in the contrary. But because its a new year I can make resolutions. And one of my new years resolutions is to follow up with the things I write about.
Firstly, I feel like I need a girlfriend. I still feel guilty about the girls I undoubtedly hurt last semester and its time for me to actually find someone I can stay with for a while. Last semester I had every intention in the world of going out with the girls I kissed at school, but I always managed to mess it up somehow. This year that will change.
Right now it feels like I have no direction in life. I have no clue what I'm going to major in, nor do I know what I want to be when I grow up. But there is something I can do to help me become successful: grades. And the only way I feel I can do this is to quit drinking till school gets out. So...I'm done with it until May 19th. Not that I drank much before, but I feel like this will clear my head so I can really conquer school.
I guess I never addressed the things that were really troubling me today, but I managed to get my two New Years Resolutions in, so thats enough.

Here are my new years pictures...

( I'm gonna buy a gun and start a war )

And then Christine and I did a little photo shoot the other night.
So I thought that needed a place in here somewhere...

( We're pretty hectic )

Scott the Dot

PS: Jon the song was for you man...we missed ya...

So i brought my camara out last night.
I took a couple pictures...not too many though.
Hopefully I'll do better sometime this week.
I talked to Molli tonight...i miss her.
San Diego's been treating me well...I get to surf a lot and the people are pretty tight...
Ultimate frisbee's been amazing too...
Basically I'm coming back over xmas break and im gonna fuck everyone up in orinda, including Henry Malmburg cuz he thinks he's "Mr. Frisbee". We'll see about that.
My classes are wonderful...next semester im gonna have Tuesday and Thursday off...so that'll be good.
The girls are treating me nicely...im still in search of the perfect person...maybe ive already found her...no one knows.
Next year I'm possibly gonna have an Ocean view from my bed...thats pretty much gonna make my life...


All the people ain’t know
all the pictures that show me who I am

All the writings that I found
all the feelings that have made me who I am
all the memories they bring me to my knees
oh revolution, that is my evolution

All your nightmares always seem like a dream to me
oh revolution that is my evolution

All the places that I go
all the footsteps that bring my way back home
all the way home

All the times I’ve been alone
all the people that have been so goddamned stoned
so stoned

All the memories they bring me to my knees
oh revolution that is my evolution

All your nightmares always seem just like a dream to me
oh revolution that is my evolution

I give in, kiss your cheek
If you have to say goodbye
for the last time

Lets not care why
Because I’ve been thinking about all the people changing over the years
oh revolution here is my evolution

All your nightmares just seem like a dream to me
oh revolution that is my evolution…

here are some pictures...

( your heart felt good )

Scott the Dot

PS: For all those wondering, im going to Hawaii for xmas break, but I'll be back in town on December 23rd.

"And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything seems like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know your alive..."

Im lost.
Im taking pictures tomorrow and ill put em up here on sunday.
I haven't taken pictures in so long and no one has seen what i do at usd...i don't even know if anyone cares.
I did nothing tonight but smoke a cigar and walk through downtown...but somehow it was rather satisfying.
Kate used to laugh at me when i said rather.
Im gonna live on the beach next year and wake up every morning to the sound of waves crashing over the sand.
Goodnight.



Scott the Dot

So on thursday I'm going off to college. Instead of getting a dotphoto account or something, I thought it would be more interesting to start updating my livejournal again so at least I could add in a few anecdotes about my adventures...

I guess I'll start by doing a little recap of this summer. I started swimming again, which turned out to be pretty fun. I had the privalege of being coached by Kevin Honey again. He brought back a whole lot of memories from the glory days at Meadow Swim Club. I also met a couple new people and got in swimming shape. I barely ran at all, but this break has given me a new enjoyment for running that I didn't have when I ran in high school. Now I just go out and run because I love it, not because I'm training to race.
Believe it or not, I didn't kiss many people this summer. I successfully found other ways to entertain myself. Kinda nice. At the end of summer I took a trip to China, an incredible country with an extremely different and unique culture. During the day, I saw a bunch of educational stuff and then at night I'd go out to bars and clubs with some kids i met. Unfortunately I don't have too many pics of the clubs and bars : ). I don't know what i was thinking. Three days before the end of my trip I found out about my friend Jon Sisto's death. It put a huge shadow on the rest of my trip. It was really nice getting back at chilling with my friends and talking about it. I will probably think about him everyday for the rest of my life.
Tonight I said goodbye to Katie, the one girl who I will always love and I still constantly want to hang out with. Saying goodbye is such a reoccuring theme in our relationship that it seemed almost normal tonight. I'll miss her a lot though.
So now it seems I'm just waiting around to go to college. Tomorrow I'm going shopping for some last minute things, tuesday i'm going surfing, and wednesday is my last day before I head off. I will miss Orinda and everything that goes along with it. I really do like this place.

Here are some pictures of China for anyone who wants to see what I did...

( Welcome to China )

Scott the Dot

ok...i know this is my first entry in like 3 months...but this is the hottest picture i've ever seen in my life...

i need to fly to indiana...right...now.



Scott the Dot

Guess I’m stuck in a dream
Surrounded by coloured leaves on the ground
As I stare at the trees
I see one fall down on my hand
As I start to explore
I can’t ignore a man
He turns his head around
His face was all worn by the sun

I’m going out for a while

So I can get high with my friends

I will

I’m going out for a while

Don’t wait up cos I won’t be home

Today

Drifting down a road

Losing myself in a dream

Feel my hands getting cold

Sat in a boat on a lake

Climbing up trying my best

As I sink

Climbing up trying my best

As I sink again...


Scott the Dot

Sup everyone,
Cross Country ended on Saturday.
Now I have tons of time to do cool stuff like update my lj.
Thanksgiving break was pretty good.
I had a small party on Saturday that I don't remember much of. H
ella drama went down though with a billion people but overall I think it was pretty fun.
Then the next two days were boring. I did a lot of cleaning.
On Tuesday love of my life, Katie Schroeder, came home from Indiana.
I pulled up to her house and she was walking up the driveway to come see me.
She was everything I remembered about her times a million.
She's seriously the prettiest and coolest girl I've ever met in my life.
We spent a few amazing days together and now we're going out again. I'm super happy about it.
I guess it sorta pissed a couple other people off. Sorry guys, nothing I can do about it now.
On a happier note, I got into my three safety schools: Boulder, Indiana, and Oregon.
Everyone's gotten kind of competetive about schools.
I honestly don't care where I go anymore. I think I'll be happy wherever. Screw it.
Winterball's coming up.
I have no date so I don't know if I'm gonna go.
School was pretty boring today.
People were really gay and were gossiping a lot.
Jesus...I feel like I'm getting really fat. I'm supposed to not run for 2 weeks.
Shit I don't think I'm gonna last for two days.
Where is Katie.
Tamara Stanten was really tan today.
So was Lizzie Parague. Lizzie's a hawt girl.
So's John Sisto.
I can't believe Sisto is still chilling with Kellie Ralph. Quite amazing.
I've been updating my livejournal for two hours now and I haven't written anything.
Did anyone see Matt Brown's Jacket today? Shit...I couldn't tell if it was ghetto or emo.
Meh...yeh it was more emo...
Molli O is still going out with Rylan.
I wore sweats underneath my jeans today...I suggest that to all guys...its amazing.
Girls, I suggest you don't wear anything under your jeans.
Katie's gonna be angry I said that.
Here are some pictures...

I miss
our nights under ocean skies
You and I are like when fire
and the ocean floor collide....

( I love you... )
Scott the Dot